So, I really really wanted to run in the half marathon, mainly to prove that I can be self-motivated. That I will not give up. And because I thought that running every day would help me lose weight. I was super excited about it and I thought it would be easy. But… I slacked off. I got sick and did not train. I did go to the gym more times than not, but I would run a mile and then go home. I really hated working out, becuase I was behind, and discouraged. Every morning my alarm woudl go off at 5:30 am and I would want to cry. Every night, I wanted to stay at work late so I would have an excuse not to go home and work out. I decided I needed to stop the madness, and wait until next year when had better prepaired myself.
Last night as I was lying in bed, upset at myself, part of Alma 34 kept resounding in my head. I have changed the words to fit my dilemma:
32 For behold, this month is the time for Paige to prepare for her run; yea, behold the day of this run is the day for Paige to show proof of her labors.
33 And now, as I said unto you before, as ye have had so many reminders from Tye , therefore, I beseech of you that ye do not procrastinate the day of your training until the end; for after this month, which is given you to prepare for your race, behold, if you do not improve your time while in this month, then cometh the day of the race wherein there can be no labor performed.
34 Ye cannot say, when ye are brought to that awful crisis that I will train, that I will return to the gym now. Nay, ye cannot say this.
I realized, that its too late. I do not have time to train for this marathon. I procrastinated too long. The thought of running this race, makes me sick to my stomach. I am simply not even close to ready. Good news is, I am not giving up. I am going to still go to the gym every day. I am going to watch what I eat. And I will train for a half marathon, when I am more prepared, and have more time!