Tuesday, October 7, 2008

My worst fear

I have been told that when people think of me they always think of a smiling face, and someone who is always happy. But you know.. underneath this crooked smile, my heart is breaking. Somedays I just wonder why life is so hard, and why I keep pushing myself to be better. Is there really light at the end of the tunnel? Does anyone even notice that I try? If I gave up, would any one be there to help me pick up the peices of myself? I found the quote that you see above, and it fits exactally with what I have been thinking. I guess what I want more than anything right now is to have someone that I know will be there all the time. I know I will always have my family, but I am craving something else. I want a best friend. I want someone that I can share all of my secrets with. Someone that I can call at 2 in the morning and just cry to them on the phone. Someone that I can love with all of my heart, and then, to have them, love me back with all of thier heart. Like the lyrics to a Nickelback song: nobody wants to be the last one there. 'Cause everyone wants to feel like someone cares. Someone to love with my life in their hands. There`s gotta be somebody for me like that.

Guess you could say that my worst fear in life is that no one will ever want me.


Alan Taylor Farnes said...

Hey!!! I didn't even know you had a blog! And who told you about mine... Anyways--you always make me smile i don't care what you say and i'm here for you whenever you need me even though its usually me who needs your help. anyways--you rock

Jacki said...

Hi Paige,
I got your blog off of Tracys blog, I hope you don't mind. :) How are you doing? Have you seen the newest Twilight trailer? I'm so excited to see the movie now. YAY!! Talk to you later!
Here is my blog address:


Collin Loni and CY said...

Paige! What a open post! We often hide those feelings we all have at times! I envy you for being able to share them! You will find that special person someday!!